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July 2009 
Fragile to the Core
Posted on Jun 24th, 2009
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Attainment
Attainment
A person carries an image of himself. Whenever we act in a way that is outside of this image, if we get angry or upset somehow, we go and apologize to someone. "I'm sorry. THAT is not how I am. It was a weak moment."
Actually if we consider it honestly, we are not really apologizing. If we really repented, really felt sorry for being angry, we would not do it again! We are really just repairing our self-image. A good person will not be angry, violent, sexual and weak! So we apologize to bring our egos back in check. "Look! I have apologized. I am a humble person. I didn't mean it. It was a rare moment. Really I am a glory of spiritual strength!"
The appearances are not always so, appearance is not reality. We feel now just if we repent we are now clean to do it again tomorrow. We live very protective of our egos and beneath we are fragile to the core. We are always building fences, walls to guard us and keep us safe, allowing some in and many out!
Those that support our ego are in! And those that do not are out! We do this filtering with everything, not just people. What we read, what we hear, what we say and believe all are filtered to support the ego.
Chances to grow and change are happening every day! Again and again we get chances to see ourselves honestly and grow, but we do not see or hear them. We are thinking something else inwardly, and what is being said on the periphery is not heard. We reject it as "not us." By rejecting our fragility, we also reject our growth.
Keep it always in mind. It is not an insult to know this. When you accept your fragility, you can grow, you can then see the way that can assist you in becoming strong. Then you can truly, honestly repent anger, you really repent. You never do it again. You see it as your weakness, your fragility..and in this moment you become stronger, more responsible.
If you continually shore up the ego, you can never truly see what you are. Learning to listen and accept that we are in some places fragile to the core!...and I said 'some' just to be kind...not to hurt the ego too much (big smile).
It is beautiful to be honest and see ourselves truly.
Actually if we consider it honestly, we are not really apologizing. If we really repented, really felt sorry for being angry, we would not do it again! We are really just repairing our self-image. A good person will not be angry, violent, sexual and weak! So we apologize to bring our egos back in check. "Look! I have apologized. I am a humble person. I didn't mean it. It was a rare moment. Really I am a glory of spiritual strength!"
The appearances are not always so, appearance is not reality. We feel now just if we repent we are now clean to do it again tomorrow. We live very protective of our egos and beneath we are fragile to the core. We are always building fences, walls to guard us and keep us safe, allowing some in and many out!
Those that support our ego are in! And those that do not are out! We do this filtering with everything, not just people. What we read, what we hear, what we say and believe all are filtered to support the ego.
Chances to grow and change are happening every day! Again and again we get chances to see ourselves honestly and grow, but we do not see or hear them. We are thinking something else inwardly, and what is being said on the periphery is not heard. We reject it as "not us." By rejecting our fragility, we also reject our growth.
Keep it always in mind. It is not an insult to know this. When you accept your fragility, you can grow, you can then see the way that can assist you in becoming strong. Then you can truly, honestly repent anger, you really repent. You never do it again. You see it as your weakness, your fragility..and in this moment you become stronger, more responsible.
If you continually shore up the ego, you can never truly see what you are. Learning to listen and accept that we are in some places fragile to the core!...and I said 'some' just to be kind...not to hurt the ego too much (big smile).
It is beautiful to be honest and see ourselves truly.
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I have a small man-hood and I get pissed off when drivers don't indicate.
There.
You happy now?
Tharlam! I knew this all the time. You did not hide anything from me.
Yes, I am very happy that you have confessed. Actually, many times I was the driver not indicating! I just thrilled at watching you get pissed off!..gave me such a giggle!
Now, I am quite happy that you have come to terms. Your man-hood has become bigger from your sincere confession!
You crazy one!!!
Thank you, Tharlam!
I was just refelcing off your post sincerely, Tharlam, how we look like animals. We hold this ideal in our minds of what 'man' is like. We say we should not be 'like' animals, we should be like 'man', out ideal self.
What can we do? We are an animal. Accepting it is the first thing that takes us beyond it, because no animal knows he's an animal.
But that's also the danger. Wherever you can ratioinalize…he should have his indicator on - you can become violent. We condemn the animal's violence..don't be like that…but we don't condemn our own violence. We defend and rationalize it in beautiful logical terms.
Whatsoever we are accept it, to deny or avoid it or dress it up in pretty clothes does nothing to change it. Just remain with it and follow it down to its roots! And once you know the roots of your behavior you can become the master!
Thank you again, Tharlam…you words sent my mind on a journey!
sincerely and with love
Cheyenne
Yes, it is here honestly openly as it is. No need to apologize.
This too is my teacher.
The contrast and boundary of it points to that beyond all boundaries.
It all serves.
Deep Bow Beautiful!
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Zennie! No need to apologize!!! That is the beauty of life and friendship to me. No need to apologize. It is beautiful to see someone raw and truthful.
this too is my teacher (big smile!)
Ah! I like that: The contrast and boundary of it points to that beyond all boundaries! Yes, yes, yes!
It serves all….that precious thing I call Tao!
Thank you, Zennie!!!
Deep Bow Handsome!
with love!
Cheyenne
Thank you to all of you for your beautiful sharing, To be vulnable, to stay
open body, mind, heart to that fragile vulnablity inside and be total with it,
and alow it to express it in the totality of the depth. This can bring the
essence of the diamond heart to the sourface. Courage and the resolution
of loving one self to the core.
You are all so precious, thank you, much love Chaitanyo
Isn't it amazing, Chaitanyo! I have learned that if you are utterly vulnerable, you never get hurt! People believe they get hurt because they are vulnerable. But no, they hurt when they put up walls…it is the walls that hurt them, the ego.
Also, oooohhhh…learning to listen to what someone is saying about me, what they see, not to protect myself, but allow that pain to go to that fragile part in me and embrace that, yes, in many ways I am fragile, weak and undeveloped.
What beautiful words, Chi!! - stay open body, mind, heart to that fragile vulnablity inside and be total with it, and alow it to express it in the totality of the depth!
Thank you so much!
All love!
Cheyenne
Cheyenne, that is truly heartfelt and very wise - I have learned that if you are utterly vulnerable, you never get hurt!
Meenaskshi! Good to see you! Thank you!
Oh, yes, it is a sincere practice to remain utterly and deeply vulnerable! Even at times, I am crying my heart out, and my husband says, “You must develop thick skin.” I say, “never!” -“of course not! I am enjoying these tears. Leave me in quiet!”
Sincerely! I find the more loving and vulnerable you are the more relaxed. If you are not loving you become tense. Tension means simply that there is some energy that needs to be shared. If you don't want to share it, then it accumulates and becomes a sickness of some sort - headache, disease.
So whenever I feel something tension-like is gathering, I run and find anyone (!) (laughing!)..stranger, and even my family are strangers to me, anyone and start sharing with them.
Remaining flowing and vulnerable - keep health!
with love!
and sincere thank YOU, Meenaskhi!